Thursday, September 25, 2008

My Written Brain

here's some of my writing,i wish I cold show you the essays, some are lost in time, others in my drawers of computer files, some as my prof. says "eye bleeder" essays.
I'd love to get feedback, as it improves my product.

13 years
thirteen are the years I waited,
for the person that existed,
but exclusively in ym imagination.

those years I spent imagining his appearence
I spent thirteen years imagining,
his eyes, his hair, his nose.

I wonder if he'd look like me,
I thought about our first conversation.
when this finally happened,
I realize i spent thirteen years
feeding my mind with false hopes
and surreal happines,
left to only wonder:
why did i believe?


What Else?
What else is there to do,
who shall we seek fpr advice
your mom?my mom? God?
what else is there to do?
shall i create my own utopia?
create a new brain?
create a different world?
what else is there to do?
chores?love?murders?
what else..


Vision
Have vision, experience
EVERYTHING you can.
Be free spirited and EVOLVE
evolve into the most perverted dream,
into the most tender thought
become EVERYTHING.


Untitled
Be confident, trust me
catch me if I fall
throw me far, so someone else can cath me
make my rough sking shine.
love me, make me your favorite toy. try and make me.
make me part of your pictures
catch me, throw me
LOVE me


Untitled 2
The high pitch of your voice
ANNOYS me
the way you say stuff
KILLS me
yet, i admire you,
and youre courage
to say the stuff you
SAY


LIGHT
The light's too bright,
can't see
eyes hurt
light too bright
intense
hot
eyes closing
I'm blind.


Elevator
the music hypnotizes me,
it makes my muscles relax,
my mind soar above valleys
my tongue tastes the
most delicious dessert.
By the time the song stopped,
it was too late, way too late
to notice the cute girl standing next to me.


B ra i n
_________________________________________________________________
ELABORATE
your mind
Explain
your acts

defend
DO your attitude

Ignore
Hypocresy
Conquer

your brain
________________________________________________________________



The List
*Stay alive (x)
*Stay alive (x)
*Don't die (x)
*VIVIR (x)
*No morir (x)
*Love Life (x)
*WRITE (x)
*CONQUER ( )



Calendar
MONDAY:Build dreams
TUESDAY:Be naive
WEDNESDAY:Create Change
THURSDAY:Stop being Naive
FRIDAY:ERROR 8127-G: Insert new media into D:/ drive
SATURDAY:-Unkown command!
SUNDAY:Fix errors above described
[repeat, rinse trhoughly and enjoy with a sidedish of your desire]


The Leader
Obey the leader
be a follower!
be a hypocryte
SUCCEED SUCCEED
REjoice in a cubicle
SUCCEED SUCCEED
Ice Cream awaits
be a whore
SUCCEED SUCCEED



Hypocrite
Our Salacious nature
will make us do things
idiotic things

our salacious nature
will make us meet poeple
hypocrites! hypocrites!

their antics make us DREAM
orgasm
love
HYPOCRITES
fucking hypocrites



JOY
dance upon the fallen
joy! joy!
adore the imposing buildings
joy! joy!
let a machine be your BOSS
joy! oh joy!
don't let your ite choke you



das adored
we are adored
every step we make *GLORIFIED*
we save everyone from plague
yet we are embarassed of our pleasures
SEX*DEATH*MONEY



SNEAKY MOVE SIS!
Thus, allowing the hippies to take over.



Untitled 3
Smile as the sun sets
and the souls flee to the South.



INSIDE ME
---------------------------------------------------
Romantic
naive
Narcissism
Intellectual birds
birds birds

BIRDS
BIRDS!!!
---------------------------------------------------



converse more
1. She asks me wahti I feel
2. she starts to take her clothes off
1. She tells me to tell her
2. she says "I want you"
1. I tell her nothing
2. she tells me to make her feel unique
1. She stares at me blankly
2. she says "why does it feel so good?"
1. She rapidly walks towards me and slaps me
2. she gets on her knees and prays
1. She is out the door abd i feel good.
2. we're done...I smoke a cigarette.
1.& 2. IT'S ALL GOOD.......FOR NOW



hello
>Hi
*hmmm?
>Hi
*hmmm? can i help you?
>Hi how are you?
*hmmm? can i help you? destroy..
>Hi, how are you? love me
*hmmm? can i help you? destroy! LIVE
>Hi, Bye, explode



TRY
Try to convince me
try really hard,
be persuasive
try, just try
try to love me
show me your trickls
try, just try
be a dictator
try, just try

7 comments:

nizzle said...

deep.
thought.
feeling - emotion.

Your attention to detail is astounding. Some stop to smell the roses...except you. Instead, your the one who notices the the soft tissue of each pedal, or the spider who's built its home below. When did you write these? Just over the years?

.monster. said...

Yeah, some are about four maybe five years old. And I like the flower thing, cuz in fact I don't like to smell flowers, I love to see and feel the intricate patterns of the stem, petals, thorns. I've talked abit about this before, explaining how I believe were connected to everything around us, from sand to clouds, we're all connected and sharing information with every living thing and non living around us

Jovana said...

you are so deep monster.
your post is so breath taking. its so fulfilling. its like when you eat a great mea and you are full and satisfied but not to where your pants are going to explode. just right you know? i hope to get to read more of your post. you are astounding and a very great person.
rock on!

.monster. said...

thanks!
haha so youre trying to say im a heart attack!
jk
i got what you meant :D



AND i got more, i write stuff like this everyday, like at work, cuz sometimes i get free time, so i get to write here and there :D

I think writing is a way for everyone to develope their most secret desires, a way in which we become something else, something bigger, somthing amazing

Jovana said...

well that is amazing.
i dont really write things down on paper. i think about them, and i just keep thinking. and then now that i have a blog, i pour out all i feel. and yes writing is amazing. i liked it before mr H's class, but now im inlove with it. now im thinking i want to be a journalist.

pss.
yes you are a heart attack hahaha =]i hope you have a great day with your kids kk. =]
hug them for me yeah?

.monster. said...

"hug them for me yeah?"


I will! dont worry about that, lol ik'll even give them a high five, or maybe the amazing double 5! with a low five and a high five, or maybe a backwards five lol!
haha sorry, but with kids you gotta think of a million ways to make simple things fun!

and write everything you can on paper!napkins, not walls though haha
but make sure everything is written down, haha :]

John Hsiao said...

Because I am your Professor, I wonder if you will major in creative writing? Although I believe it is given so after reading some of these works done by a wholly complete yet different alter/ego named. . . (Monster/Gabriel) the poet.